wire-monkey mother.
as i cling to you,
the familiar-grey wire of you
takes my heat
and leaves me cold.
bone deep cold.
yes of course and i’m sorry that’s true,
you give me what i need
(if cage is shelter and tube fed milk is what i need to stay alive then yes, that is true)
and yes, of course,
you give and you give and what thanks do you get?
it’s all shiny on the outside, your cold grey wire
but there is a hunger
one that confuses the me,
the girl who should be grateful.
Why am i cold?
deep down?
It’s a cold i know is wrong.
it alarms me and i am the only one who hears the siren.
i see the cloth mother there
i have even been there while i could withstand that other more simple hunger.
Her warm leaving me warm,
some of the way down.
But i can’t stay.
i have seen you soften and your warmth flow
incandescent and luminous for others,
and if i leave you for that softness,
i might miss the chance of the switch flicking for me.
so i stay
and i stay
and i stay
on your wire torso
cold
and colder still
all the way down
to where longing emits from
deep
deep down.
It’s cold.